Tuesday, January 24, 2012

I keep remind myself about my promises, everyday.



Hey, long time no see. I thought you.... mati. .______. hahaha ok it's really cruel! Okay here. Oh ya forgot. Assalamualaikum w.b.t everyone who are reading this entry. Okay, actually I'm here not for giving a stories about my life. I'm just want to tell something what I feel in this lately. Since I have enter in this life, in this year, so many things I have to know, I have to learn and observe. And also the things I have to understand and make it feel better. So many things I've through, I've face it with a strong heart to avoid it and to ignore it. For a long time, I be patiently stay strong and keep moving without any words to complain. I know Allah keep giving me a test to make me feel stronger than before. Allah gives me a chance to know what's life is. Yknow, Allah never let His servant down, right? Never and will never. He will always be there as long as we could get it up without forget Him behind. Okay, I know, I'm not good enough to teach you about this. But, my situation could make it as experience for me, and for all of us. What I'm gonna tell you is.. my life is full with sarcasm. With a little things that make me hurts, sad and cry sometimes. Especially my siblings. Yeah my sisters. And sometimes my dad. Grr, you know.. no one could stand with it right? Sarcasm there and here. But it is just a test for me. They behave like this to make me be a better person, right? It's for my own good sake. What I'm gonna do is.. stay strong and what people call its? Tebalkan telinga? Ahahah my mum always said so. She always give me a free advice in this life. And now she's the reason why I choose to get up when life gets me down :) Thanks mum, you're rock!! haha love you :*  Anyway, what I'm telling this, is for 'pengajaran' for us to make we be a better person. My mum always say, "You're not gonna ask them to change yourself 'cause everything is coming from yourself. So you're the one who holding the remote control in your life, you're the one who sit in the driver seat of your life, so you're the one who will make a choice for your life. Don't let anyone change you." Mum, really you're right. I have always keep her words ;) Thankssss! haha. So, I have been grounded .___. For not saying anything about my loves. GRR, it is so annoys me. Sistaaa, Cerra ask me to. She said, "you have to prove it that you can live without your puppy love", so thisss. I have to prove it for her that I'm not gonna say anything about... him. Adam. Yes I can't tell anything T___T annoys me, really. Hate it. I can't say anything in my twitter account, my mind, either. T___T hah, just for a week :B hahaha. It's really weird. Pretty weird about me and my sister's deal. She's just... making a joke around. I know. :) She never let me down. Will never, even in once. If she did, she just wants to teach me how to be a strong woman.. Live without a men. Nah, she's always doing this to me. I used to it.



This. I've made it by myself :) To keep remind me to keep my promises. Especially my promises to my mum and dad. That to make them proud all the time :') Yes, in process + trying to be = success in my mind :) InsyaAllah, mum, dad :) I've try my best for both of you ;')
Thanks for reading. xoxo

Saturday, January 14, 2012

My fifteen life.


Heyyyy, hahah. Assalamualaikum ;) Hihi, see dah 2012 kan? Sorry dh lama tk update. Busy. Yeahh *flip tudung sekolah* hahaha. I kan VIP. OMG! eyka, stop it. hahaha. tkdelah. Busy dgn study and my fifteen life lah ;) Since school is re-open aku langsung tkde masa nak sentuh pc. :'( Nak nangis je rasa. Handphone je banyak pegang. Tweet jelah if ade news pape. So just go stalk my twitter k? haha. Tu pun weekend je ade masa. If hari biasa, ya Allah, tkdenya. Firstly, bangun subuh, pergi sekolah then pkul 1 balik, balik terus mandi, solat, makan then buatlah homework. Nak tweet pun kejap je. Dua tiga tweet je aku mampu. Then kalau letih, terus tidur. Haha :P petang ade kelas tuisyen. Selasa and khamis. Seriously..... tired gilaaa. Even penat mcm mana, aku tk nk merungut, tk nk nangisnangis. Ni just a few things I need to know. Belum lagi time kolej nanti. mesti langsung busy. pack jadual gila. Dah boleh bayangkan. haha jadual doktor :P atotototo. Haha. Kena fikir seribu kali kalau nak jadi doktor. Umi byk nasihatkan aku, jangan amik kalau tk mampu. But... aku nak cuba yang terbaik. Nak jadi. Aku minat tapi aku takut juga kalau satu hari nanti aku out. Quit from it. Aku kena lah pikir masakmasak for my own future. Okay tu tolak ketepi k? haha nak cerita perjalanan sekolahku yang best gilaaaa ni. haha Okayy firstly, masa first day tu memang rasa nervous lah eh. Rasa mcm tk nk je keluar dari kereta tapi umi ckp "relax lah, memang first day mcm tu, lamalama okaylah" hihi tk berapa lama dah okay sbb jumpa... hahahaha okayy. Jumpa ... tut. hahahaha and jumpa kawankawan teruss hug mcm seribu tahun tk jumpa ._. hahaha dgn jerit and lambaian mesra tu. hahaha. memang best first day. And then pagipagi memang ngantuk gila ah kan? Nak cari kelas pun dgn mata yang.. hahaha nak tertutup. Sambil tu gelakgelak dgn kawan. Memang, pagipagi dah gelak mcm pontianak. haha smpai cikgu pandang je kiteorg. Hihi as usual memang mcm tu k? Cikgu jangan marah, ni memang hobi kiteorg ;p haha. And the second day of school, okayy dah. And everything alhamdulillah okay je. cikgucikgu aku pun semua okay and tk garang sngt alhamdulillah! hihi semangat nak study ni! :p lagilagi ... hahahaha okay tkde pape. hihi. Nak forget about the love things, tolak ketepi. Yang aku nak tarik ni, yang aku nak hadapi now, study hard and get straight A's for my PMR ^ _ ^ Aminnnnn~! hihi cepat aminkan doa aku tu. hahaha thanks :P


Okay here. You see that? My books. Yeah, for my tuition. Seriously semua buku tebal -,- berat nak bawa. Heh, kelas best memang best. Ramai kawan, and ramai yang aku kenal from other schools. And paling aku geram, aku satu kelas dgn Raja Fareez -.- Yeah benci dia. Since I'm in standard 1 -.- Musuh pertama aku. Kalau jumpa je gaduh. Last aku jumpa dia last year time tu kt bazaar ramadhan. He's with his parents and I'm.. oh okay -.- Tk tegur and bila satu tuisyen, dia pandang aku pastu jeling lain macam. Then time balik, dia tegur aku ngusik aku -.- gila. hahaha. tu aku tk nk kisah sngt ah. As long as aku boleh belajar, selesa belajar, okaylah. Hihi terbaikkkkk. hahaha. Aku beruntung sngt. Everyone selalu ade di sisi aku bila aku susah. And most important, Allah. Allah sentiasa tolong aku. Makbulkan doa aku ;') Alhamdulillah. Dugaan sikit sebanyak bawa pengajaran for my own self. Yes. ;') hihi. okay nak cerita pasal kukurikulum pagi tadi. Every saturday, ade koko. So I'm taking a part in it. Dlm badan unit beruniform aku masuk KRS. you know? tahulah kan? Everyone tahu -,- And permainan, memanah even aku tk tahu memanah but I'm gonna learn from it. And lastly, kelab fotografi. Yes I love it. Memang sukaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa gila. kalau boleh nak je skip KRS and games, nak masuk terus fotografi :P hahaha and tadi kena ngusik dgn Auf -.- Best sngt kena tarik kerusi weh. Dia blocking aku nak duduk -.- Memang best ah. Pastu orang pandang. Grr, memang suka gila. Maira buat tangan di dada mata ke atas. hahahahah pastu terus amik tempat duduk kt hujung ;p Ramai pelik macam mana aku boleh tegurtegur budak tu even dia a new student in Raja Mahadi. Kenal kt fb and twitter eh? haha k entah tk ingt.

Anyway, aku rasa aku dh byk sngt merapu and membebel kt sini, daripada aku kena sound jap agi, baik aku stop hahaha. So, yaaa I'm so happy today. Even everyday aku keep counting the day you come back... hihi ;') There, you. Hihi. Okay, I should stop writing about it. See you in my next entry, insyaAllah ;)

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