Saturday, June 30, 2012

When you believe...


Assalamualaikum :] Lama dah tingglkan blog? Berhabuk dah *tiup habuk* hehehe. Anyway, post harini utk hari terakhir bulan June. Sedihlah. Hahaha banyak sgt kenangan manis pahit semua :'] Nnt nak masuk bulan July. Time, why you flies too fast? It's hard for me catch the sweetest moment... :'] Hmm wishing bulan July dpt bahagiakan Ika. Ehhh silap, moga Allah buka hati Ika utk sentiasa dekat padaNya, moga Allah sentiasa lindung keluarga Ika dri benda tk elok. And moga Allah tenangkan hati untuk beribadah masa bulan ramadhan nantii :')) Ya Allah, tk sabarnyaaaaaaa. Nak puasa sesama, bangun sahur sesama, berbuka sesama, berterawih sesama :'))) Haish. Hopefully masa nak buat tu semua, Ika and keluarga sihat walafiat, insyaAllah. For your information, lately ni Ika tk berapa sihat. Dgn cuacanya, and dgn masalah dalaman. Hehehe. Tkpelah lelama sihatlah, ;'))

P/S: Raya tahun ni dia balik tak? Or tak? Or dia balik tapi dia tk pedulikan Ika? :'] Hmm takpelah.
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Saturday, June 23, 2012

As for me, I'm done.


Hulaaaaaaaaaaa~ hihi. Eh Ikaaa ni rajin pula update blog ni. Hihihi buat ape nak biarkan usang mcm tu jeee? kan? Haa baik update. Hohohoho. Anyway harini, Ika decide.. dah buat keputusan utk... Hmmm planning for my life. To be better than this. ika nak lepaskan masalah ni jauhjauh. Ika nak happy, and I deserve for it. Betul tak? Everyone need it, everyone want it! Ika tk nk sbbkan dia, Ika nak pindah sekolah, sbbkan dia Ika susahkan umi tukarkan sekolah, sbbkn dia Ika tebalkan muka masuk RZ balik. So I just ignore whatever come up. Ika nak hidup sendiri, tnpe kawan pun tkpelah. Kawan lain ade, kawan lelaki ade. It is just okay for me. I'm done and so done. Ika dah lama letak bendera putih tapi Ika tk smpai hati nak bgtahu. Okay here, I admit it, Ika menyesal pindah sekolah. Ika lebih sygkan sekolah RZ. sbb masa tu Ika bebas nak buat ape. Ika sorgsorg masa tu. Ika tkde kawan baik. Ika rehat pun dgn budak India, Cina. Budakbudak kt sana baik sgt. tk kira kaum ape but they just being fine with me. And I'm happy. Tapi bila masuk sekolah sini, Ika rasa lain. Felt so different. And tadi buat Ika sedar, buat ape kita pening kepala fikir pasal masalah orang? No point we care too much about them. And they don't appreciate it at all... :-) Hmmm. tkpelah. dah nasib, kan? Nak buat mcm mana lagi ;) hihihik. I'M FINE! AND FEEL SO RELIEVED!!! ^ _ ^
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Friday, June 22, 2012


Assalamualaikum ;) Salam Jumaat, everyone. Alhamdulillah pagi tadi Ika bangun dgn hati yg tenang sikit, and smile.. Tapi hati yg sebenarnya, Allah je yang tahu. Ika tkde mood sbnrnya. Ika rasa mcm nak lari je jauhjauh. Nak lari dri masalah ni semua, nak lari dri kesedihan, nak lari dr segala-galanya. Tapi Ika tahu, Ika tk boleh. Ni bukan masalah keluarga lagi, pasal family I can't say anything dlm blog. That's just too private to tell. Tkde masalah besar selain dri kawan, kan? Ape yg Ika buat selama ni, semua gagal. Semua tk jadi and everything's gone wrong... Tapi Ika tk dpt nak realize ape silapnya yg sbrnya. Yelah, kita manusia, mana kita sedar semua tu. Entahlah, susah nak describe. Ika ngadu kt Angah, and she said tu semua normal. "Kawan? Hmm. Let me tell you. Takde kwn yg perfect. As a good friend kita kena terima kekurangan kawan kita. Kita manusia, takde yg smpurna." Hehe Ika ngadu dri jarak yang jauh. hmm air mata mengalir tetiba bila angah ckp mcm tu. In sudden, Ika nangis depan pc. Sebak hati baca tweet angah haritu. Sejak dari tu, Ika termenung, fkir panjang tapi belum decide ape nak buat. Me, characteristic Ika yng benda kecik pun anggp besar, tk ubah-ubah. Ika dari dlu mcm ni :/ benda kecik nak besar2kan. And sejenis manusia yang tk pernah stick to the one. Kalau kawan tu, tkkn kekal lama :/ Kekal pun mcm tu je. I mean, mcm kawan lama, kawan sekolah, kejap contact, then lost, then ade balik. Seems like I can't be a friend for them, for a long time.. Err. Haish, Ika tk tahu mcm mana nak cakap lagi dah. Ni diri Ika sendiri, I can't do anything dah. Perasaan give up pun ade, rasa mcm nak dok luar negara pun ade. haha even tu tk dpt nak selesaikan masalah... Kalau biar tergantung pun tk leh, kan? :( Hm.


:')
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Thursday, June 21, 2012

Well. I can't be happy for long time..


Heyyy there ;) Ika teringin nak pergi Mekah, buat umrah lagi. Kat sana, Ika tenang sngt. Tkde sape nganggu Ika. Orang Arab semua buat hal masing-masing. I miss 2011 :( Ika nak sgt pergi. Kalau ade peluang, mmg Ika org yg paling happy sekali. Kat sana nak marahmarah pun rasa mcm bersalah, kalau berjuta dugaan pun Ika and family still boleh sabar lagi tapi kt sini? Haih entahlah. Bukan suddenly, tapi ni diri kita sendiri, kan? ;) *take a deep breath*


Ikaaa rindu nak tengok Ka'abah, rindu nak tawaf, buat umrah, dan segala-galanya yang ada masa Ika pergi sana :( Tempat yang paling tenang, bahagia :') Hmmm.

P/S: PMR is coming about less than 3 months .____. dushhhh!
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Monday, June 18, 2012

H to the A to the P to the P to the Y


Hai, assalamualaikum. If there ade yang membaca post ni :p hehe. Anyway tadi kt sekolah ade karnival kokurikulum. So teachers, buat pameran. Macammacam ade. Termasuklah towel cake yang Ika buat. Pamerkan everything. Segan tu mmg segan, 'cause Ika kena jaga barang tu and tell them about it. Hahah dah lah buruk gila. Haih funny je. And ramai ckp mine was pretty, cute but I'd prefer Azwa's creation :) Lawaaaa gila dia buat. Hahah jelez ;p And ramai gak lah yang tengok, termasuk him. hahahah him? Lol bff. hahaha bff? Okay crap!! hahaha. Tkdelah. Ex crushh ;p hahaha. Before I know Adam, I had a crush on someone, tahu kan sape? Haaa so tkyh citelah eh ;p Yang rasa mcm nak tergelak tu, he ask Puan Salina, "ni dia buat ke?" hahahahahahah Ika diam je, pandang dia and cikgu and smile. And tk sempat nak explain, dia dah bla. Lol. Okaylah, hahahah tkyh nak malu sngt lah cik abang ;) ask me! I will give you a good explanation ;p hahahah. And I told Maira about that, sounds funnylah :) Hehe. Tapi, tujuan Ika sbnrnya, tk nk harapkan pape pada lelaki. Ika tk nk harap lebih dri kawan. Ika tk nk hancurkan hati Ika. Ika tk nk jatuh ke lubang yang sama. So, I should make a new one for my own happiness, betul tak? haaaa tu lah caranya utk jadi org yg paling bahagia. Ika tk nk minta ape ape utk hiburkan hati Ika selain drpd org Ika sayang ;) About Adam? Kalau kiteorg tkde jodoh, it's okay. Allah knows best! tu je. ;) Allah tahu ape nak buat, Allah dah aturkan yang terbaik utk kita semua ;) betul tak? hihi

P/S: "You can't expect me to be fine 'cause I don't expect you to care." nice words :)
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Thursday, June 14, 2012

Life would be great if you stay where you used to be..


Haiiyyyyyy :D *excited* hahah tk delah excied mana pun. I just........ hahah entahlah. Actually sakit ni. Hehe, period pain T~T sumpahh sakit. Hm sabar jelah. Anyway, since dah buka sekolah ni Ika susah nak dpt masa utk online. Lol. Bagus lah. hahaha. Online kt handphone je. tu pun tk puas -.- haha. Bukan study pun, Ika kemaskemas barang sekolah, then berangan, then layan novel, then byk fkir masa depan. Hm, yang masa depan tu tkleh bla smpai terpesong ke arah nak kahwin. Hahahahahahahah okay ini lawak! Sampaikan dah fkir nama anak ape. MasyaAllah. Ish ish ish apeahhh ika ni. PMR, is about less than 100 days left.. Nervous. Scary. And, die. hahahah lol. Anyway, Gucci dah bersalin. 10 haribulan June! Hihihihih 4 ekor! semua hitam -.- hahaha mak ayah hitam, anak mesti lah hitam gak. Hadoiiiyaiii. hahaha. Tapi ade sekor tu putih. Sesat, hahahah comelssss. And now Oyen dah jarang keluar :( Kesian dia.


Ni gmbar Oyen yang palingpalingpaling latest. Hahah. Dia pakai scarf ika ._________. Hahah Ika yg pakaikan. Saje je, I know he's look cute. Just like his owner. hahahahaha okay dah. lol. I just love my cats, and kittens :'))))) Diorg pengubat hati Ika tahu? Hihihi omeyyy je diorg :)

Klahhh, Ika ade byk benda lagi nak kena buat. :) I gottaa go ;) See you on the next post, insyaAllah :)

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Tuesday, June 5, 2012

'If' I could fight for not missing you...


Assalamualaikum. :)

I have a interested story to share.. It's about Adam, :) Hm, mcm mana nak mulakan eh? Hm mcm ni.. Smlm, hari Isnin kan? 4 haribulan. Ika pergi temankan umi beli barang utk masak makan malam kt tesco. Mmg biasa temankan umi. Tapi time tu lain pula. 'cause I met a guy who exactly looks like Adam. Yknow? Ika terkejut gila tapi Ika tahan and cover muka terkejut Ika tu. Nak gelak pun ade. Hahaha tapi Ika diam je. Ika jumpa kt tempat freeze, yg tmptmpt air tu. Pastu umi sruh Ika amik something, Ika amik and sambil tu mata Ika pandang that guy yang tengah lalu kedepan, and he stares at me. hahahahaha Ika ckp dlm hati, "alamak aiii" hahahaha pastu mata cptcpt pandang tempat lain. Ya Allah, kenapa ni? Ika terus istighfar. And lepas Ika tolong amik barang tu ini, baru Ika bgtahu umi. "I think I saw someone's who looks like Adam. Hmmm." Umi ckp, "huishh, dia buat ape kt tesco ni? Tesco Klang pula tu -.-" Umi buat muka. hahaha And I was like.. hm okay bukan dia kot. :) Dalam dunia ni, kita ade 7 orang muka sama. So tk mungkin Adam tu sorang je muka dia mcm tu. hahaha. Ape lah Ika ni :) Pastu time nak balik, Ika terpisah dgn umi. Ika pun tk perasan mcm mana umi boleh terlepas -.- hahah Ika tolak trolley, nak smpai ke parking dah, pastu Ika tgk belakang, umi tkde. Haih, Ika terus amik phone, call umi tp tk dpt. Muka Ika dah berkerut dah, and jumpa lagiiiii laki tu. Hahahahah Ika nak cover mcm mana, Ika pndg dia, and dia pun pndg Ika. Hadoiiii, dah lah time tu Ika membebel mcm mcm. Hahahaha pastu 5 minit pastu baru nmpk umi. Haishhh hahahaha malu kot. Tgh marah2, dia ade kt situ pulaaaaaaaa. Tapi dia beli barang dapur dgn sorg girl. Maybe his girlfriend. Kalau betul tu Adam... hahahahah entahlah. :) Hm redha jelah kalau dia dh ade yg lain. Tapi Ika fkir balik, dia kan kt Cairo, Egypt.. tkkn dh balik kot? and kenapa dia beli barang kt Klang? hahahahah tu yang funny. I missed him so much kot? Hmmm maybe?

Entahlah, Ika pun tkleh nak cakap ape dah. Dah masuk 6 bulan tk contact. Rindu tu dah seluas lautan :') Hahahaha jiwangg gila ayat nih. Lately ni pun Ika asyik dgr lagu sedih ._______. okay ni sengal. hahaha sepanjang cuti sekolah Ika layan perasaan je. Haihh mana tk naik jerawat. Hmmm tk cukewww :'( hahaha


P.S: I miss our memories :') Cepat balik, taw! Hmm.
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