Dream.. will come true. InsyaAllah

Hoooyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, hihihi. Ika nak happy! Even situasi tk mengizinkan. But it's okay, as long as my dream can makes me happy. I will be okay. As you can see, picture above, menunjukkan yang Ika still sukakan Princesses stories. Cerita dongeng semua tu. Hihi I swear Ika still sukaaa tengok cerita tu semua. And the latest story, Tangled. Ada tengok? Cerita tu best gilaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Hahah try ah tengok. Selalu ade kt HBO :) Mengisahkan princess hilang, her name is Rapunzel. Ala, cerita dia mcm Rapunzel tp lain skit lah. Dia ade rambut magic. Panjanggggggg gilaa rambut dia. Lawa and cute. I love it very muchhhh :D hihi. Tengok jelah, Ika malas nak cerita ;p hehehe.

So, holidays dah start. As I told you, I will update it kalau ade masa. And ya, nothing is special. Just for relax time. Spending time with family, cats and lover. Hihi :p Oh ya, you know? Ika pakai number maxis and digi :p hehehe. Abah gave me last week. He said, he know I want to use Digi's number. So he give his old number. Dia tk nk pkai lagi. I don't know why, unimportant ;p so, I'm using 2 no and 2 phone .___________. ya bagus. hahaha. Saje je. Ala, kalau tk pkai dah, bg lah balik. Saje try pakai ;p hehehe. Okay lah gak pakai Digi. Murah and save kredit. Kalau maxis tkde kredit, guna digi ;p hehehe. Rasanya kalau topup 50, boleh tahan dua bulan :B Even using BB, BBM. internet service, serious murah kalau Digi. Try on it ;)

So, talk about dreams on the first place.. I want to be happy. Well sometimes betul gk org ckp, duit boleh buat kau happy. Ya it is tapi susah kalau ade org yg suka amik kesempatan :( Hmm kalau kita ade duit je, mesti ramai amik kesempatan atas tu semua. Susah nak cari org yg ikhlas kawan ngn kita tanpa harapkan duit, harta tu semua. Hishh payahnyaaaa .___. Okayyy its time for listing my dreamssssssssssss~

- A happy day, happy things and happy everything :']
- A good life with family and friends
- A good relationship with Allah, family, friends and my future...... lol
- Nak jadi wedding planner
- but in the same time nak jadi cikgu tadika .______________.
- Be pretty in my own way. ;)
- Nak pakai kereta BMW Z4
- Nak duduk rumah banglo besarrr with my family, with my own money.
- Wanna go Mekah and Madinah once again with Umi :'] Me and Umi, only.
- Wanna go Paris, London, Istanbul and... Egypt :]
- Nak kittens, cats yang cuteeeeeeeeeeee sngt :p and manja mcm Oyen. I mean, I want yg white punya. Ya Allah, mesti cute, kan? :'D
- I want MacBook Pro
- dslr canon 1100D. DUSHHHHHHHHHHH I REALLY WANT THISSS :'[ badly...
- Every dress, with polka dots pattern. Make sure it is pink or blue ;) white blue

Rasanya dah kot. Hahahaha. Tapi semua tu tkkn jadi kalau tkde usaha dari diri kita sendiri, kan? So? Ika kena usaha utk dpt kan semua tu. Impian Ika tk setinggi org lain. Impian Ika yang sebenarnya, ialah kebahagiaan. Kebahagiaan dtg dripd senyuman yang ada pada bibir umi. Kebahagiaan umi, kebahagiaan Ika. That's it :) Tapi semua tu just tambahan je. hahaha saje je listkan ;) So people would know yang Ika ade impian Ika sendiri tapi kebanyakkan semuanya yang memerlukan duit ;) Haha.

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Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Assalamualaikum, ya Allah, lama dah tk buka blog ni. Ade niat nak update, tp tkde masa. Haha. Last week, hm I mean.. dlm last month lah, umi dah alihkan meja study Ayie ke bilik Ika, so ya thanks to you mum. haha. Ika appreciate it tp gunakan cuma untuk buat hw bukan nak study pun -.- Yes I'm so lazy bum bum. Ya Allah, rasa mcm nak lepuk je diri sendiri tp tu lah hakikatnya, tu lah faktanya. Ika memang malas to the max and I really hate myself T_T Hmm kenapa kau ni Ika? Seriously, Ika kena berubah juga walau mcm mana pun. Walaupun tk minat belajar, kena juga. People around me selalu ckp, tu semua wajib and have to, sbb tu ilmu Allah. And umi cakap, nnt kalau laki buat hal, tkde masalah utk Ika utk tingglkn dia. Hahaha umi selalu ckp mcm tu kt Ika. Walaupun duit tk berjanjikan kebahagiaan dan hati tenang, selalu ade je org dengki, sbbkan duit, tapi duit segala-galanya APABILA diPERLUkan bukan digunakan ikut sukahati kita je. Duit bukan boleh beli orang, beli kasih sayang. Kalau orang lain, you all boleh lah, but me, no! Duit tk boleh beli Ika, duit tk boleh beli jiwa raga Ika, tk boleh beli kasih sayang Ika. Tu semua anugerah Allah. Love is a gift.


For the other stories, Ika agak stress dgn the things around me. Merimaskan. Sometimes I just wonder, ape yang membuatkan Ika rasa mcm ni, rimas je, rasa tk menentu :/ I don't know why. Rasa mcm semua benda tk selesai dgn baik. Yang satu tu dah okay, datang pula yang lain. I'm not really strong to face this, alive. For seriously, Ika memang tk kuat tapi Ika memaksa diri utk kuat. Paksa diri utk pretend Ika okay. Depan family, kawankawan. And in front of myself. Tapi.. depan Allah? Ika tk boleh. Air mata mengalir bila Ika luahkan semuanya. I know, He is testing me right now. He wants me to be better than this. :')

About Adam? Heheh Ika banyak fkirkan dia. tapi Ika tk harapkan dia sngt. Not really. Ika redha kalau Ika dpt kawan dgn dia lagi sekali or not. Ika redha kalau kiteorg tkde jodoh utk teruskan semuanya. Ika mmg dh siap sedia since my negative thoughts always be in my head. Ika hope Ika dpt tabahkan hati ni. Masalah Ika tk lah sebesar orang lain. Maybe orang lain lagi teruk drpd ni. Buat ape Ika nak merayu dkt Allah supaya berhenti. Sbb Ika tahu, setiap yang Allah bagi, utk kebaikan. Utk ajar Ika. :') I really thanked to Him.

P.S: Alhamdulillah. I love my life, my heart. Walaupun byk sngt scars inside ;') InsyaAllah, cuti nnti Ika update lagi ^ _ ^

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Yeah now I'm listening to the song, which title Memo by Yuna. Like seriously, I love her. Her voice, maigod!! hahaha nice ;) And her fashion. Yaa love it so much. Haha anyway, today, is the first day of April 2012. I've started my day with smile. Alhamdulillah, I thanked to Allah 'cause I'm still alive. Still breathing and have a chance to live my day. By the way, dah masuk April ni.. Ika kena byk study lah. PMR nak dekat wooo. Hahaha dgn itu, Ika janji dan harap Ika dapat tolak ketepi soal twitter, blog, facebook ape kejadah semua kt pc ni. Haha and nak tolak ketepiiii kesemua masalah yang buat Ika gilaa ni. Masalah kawankawan ke family ke, psl Ika ke, tolak tepi weh. Ika nak study dri skrg. InsyaAllah. Nak buktikan yang Ika boleh banggakan umi dgn abah. And nak buktikan yang Ika boleh dpt lebih dripd angah :p hehehe. Kalau boleh nak straight A's tapi... kalau tk leh juga, 6A pun okayyy pe? 5A ke? hehe jangan 4A ke bawah T__T please, hehehe. okay I have to remind to myself everyday. InsyaAllah, boleh ni. Hmm :'] kena yakin, kan kan kan? Hehe. So itu jelah kot Ika nak cakap :p hehehe.

P.S : I wanna go there with someone I love most. ;) InsyaAllah. Hehehehe. :B

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Assalamualaikum. Ika harap tkde ape yg boleh halang Ika untuk jadi org yg bahagia. Ika nak kebahagiaan datang dari hati. Tapi Ika nmpk, orang bahagia datang dari duit, dari penipuan, dari segala yg tk elok dlm dunia ni. Ika nak orang memahami Ika. Ika nak Allah sentiasa ada dengan Ika. Tapi Ika.. jarang ade untuk Allah. Ika tahu, Ika byk sngt buat dosa. Ika harap Ika ade masa untuk taubat. Tu biarlah Ika jawab dgn Allah nanti. Biarlah Ika berurusan dengan Allah. Next, Ika nak kebahagiaan yang suka ria dgn family dan kawan kawan. Ika tk minta, dan tk pernah minta kebahagiaan datang dari cinta. Puppy love lah ape lah. Ika nak dgn family je. Setidaknya, kawan. 3 je, Allah, family dan kawankawan. Ika tk nk sebenarnya cinta-cinta ni. Ika nak jauhkan, Ika nak elakkan, Ika nak sorokkan, tapi tk dpt. Dulu, Adam.. Ika cuba nak jadi kawan, bukan kekasih. Ika nak elak, tapi Ika kesian kan dia. So Ika accept dia. Terima dia seadanya. Terima kelemahan dia. Terima segalanya. Smpailah dia buat Ika jatuh hati, buat Ika suka kawan dgn dia. Buat Ika rasa happy sngt dgn dia. Tapi semua tkkn jadi kekal. Mesti datang hanya sementara. And he's leave me for catch his ambition. Kiteorg dah janji.. Tapi Ika tk pasti dgn semua tu. Entahlah. Hati Ika mcm pudar and mcm ignore je. Ika happy dgn status single ni. Ika happy sesangat. Sbbkan Ika rasa diri forever alone, Ika cuba dekatkan diri dgn Allah. Alhamdulillah.. Ika okay dgn semua tu. Ika fikirkan PMR, fikirkan umi, abah and my family. And I'm trying to be happy. I'm trying to forget everything about him for a while. And tk expect other people will come to be my friend, and be my love. Serious Ika harap dia tk fikir yg Ika ni terima dia sbbkn Ika sayangkan dia. Ika terima sbb Ika nak kawan, Ika kesiankan dia.. I'm not trying to destroy people's life.... please. Faham Ika, k? Hm, Ika tk tahu ape lagi nk jadi lepas ni. One by one kills me. Ika tk nk nangis sebenarnya. Semua org tk nk, kan? Gila ah kalau dia suka menangis all the time. Bila nangis, sakit kepala. Tu yg Ika tk suka. And last night, nangis pastu tk ckup tidur. hahah. And then tk sekolah. Lol. Hujan lebat sesangat sangat :p haha. byknya sangat tu :p hmm. Okaylah. Bagi penutup bulan March ni, Ika harap, Ika dpt jadi kawan yg baik untuk semua orang ;) Ika nk jadi kawan untuk semua orangggggggggg. semuaaaaaaaaaa okay? haha :) Harap sangat, faham lah Ika. Kawan first. Lepas SPM, lepas dh habis belajar baru boleh nak serious relationship ;) Kalau boleh nak lelaki yg berani masuk meminang. Ika reject banyak kali pun dia tk kisah, and try again and again. Wahh tu lelaki yg tk mudah putus asa :D hahaha I loikeee. ;) hehe. Ika muda lagi nk fkir psl kahwin. PMR is coming, soon. Okaylah, Ika ucapkan assalamualaikum bulan April, waalaikumsalam bulan March ;) Bulan penuh kenangan. Hihik. Okayy I stop writing here. xoxo

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