Is all about PMR..

Assalamualaikum ;)

Haiiii awak awak di sana. Haha. Post haritu kata nak update bulan depan. Lepas PMR tapi rasanya Ika ade something nak cakap before PMR. Hm hihi. So straight to the point yaa? Since nak dekat dah PMR ni jantung Ika berdegup kencang. Ika tk tahu nak buat ape. Setiap kali Ika study, k Ika berusaha study tapi bila Ika stop for a while, zzzz jadinya. Acano tu? Asyik nak tidurrrrr je kerjanya. And one more thing, bila Ika main game, online Ika rasa bersalah sbb pasal Ika online, main game Ika lupa nak study. Pastu nnti ckp "ala cuti lagi, esok jelah." then esok, Ahad (today) "ergh malasnya." Okayyy it's awful you know... Really....Then nak ckp esok lah..... esok dah sekolah. Esok dah mula busy balik. On the weekend je ade peluang nak study lamalama cuma Ika je tk nk gunakan peluang tu semua. How stupid I am, huh? Damnnnnnnn shit! oh okayy Ika melampau dah. Hahaha

And another story before PMR.... Family harapkan Ika dpt 4 or 5As. More than Angah did. Tapi Ika tk rasa Ika boleh. Ika cuma target BM, BI, KHB & P. Islam Ika A je. Maths, target B or C or D? Sc, B or C. Sejarah Geo C or B. Well, hope tkde gagal. Pleasee :( Ya Allah, tolonglah aku mendapat ilham semasa menjawab kertas peperiksaan yg bakal menentukan masa depan ku :( Aamiin~ ;)

And... diorg selalu cerita masalah dalaman kt Ika. Ika tahu umi, kakak, angah perlukan tempat utk mengadu and especially umi. Okay Ika faham. Tapi kadangkadang Ika rasa mcm stress gak.. Tapi Ika tknk diorg stress sbb tk cerita kt oranggg. Well I mean, umi ade high blood pressure so she need somebody to talk to. Me? I want to be free, successful in my life.. Okay next time Ika cuba fikirkan k ;) hihik

Haaaa lupa nak cerita. Hahaha k lupa? Haritu umi belikan laptop baru utk Ika. Actually nk repair laptop Dell tu tapi 1000 lebih harga dia so umi decide baik beli baru. Hahaha 1000 lebih repair boleh dpt satu laptop. Eventhough I still love my old laptop, I have to buy a new one.. Laptop tu kalau repair pun sama je. Baik beli baru kan kan kan? Hahaha And now senanglah kalau Ika nak buat assignment/folio and everything in my own laptop. Updating iPhone's software or whatever. Hahaha :p Life is great! Tapi lagi bagus kalau family jadi bahagia mcm dulu. Hahaha okay bye.

Okay.. Ika nak minta ampun maaf kalau Ika ade buat salah pape kt korang (hm ade ke? well, no one is reading my blog dahhhh), especially family.. kawankawan and kakak angkt Ika dulu tu, Eyla right? Hm dah lama tk contact. Haha. So hoping that my apology wld be accepted so I can live my life with peace ;) hahaha. K english Ika teruk dah nih. Lama tk buat latihan T~T Ika!!!! PMR is coming! You have to study and improve everything that you have!! Okayyy gotta go. See ya later! xoxo

p/s: PRAY FOR ME!!!! hope dpt lebih dri 4 or 5A PLEASEEEE :')))) THANK YOU GUYSS! LOVE YAA! XOXO

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8th Sept 2012

Assalamualaikum. Hihi harini tk letak gmbr tumblr sbb nak letak bykkkkkkkkkkkk gila gmbr open house. Tklah byk sgt. Tadi tu overact. haha. Anyway, a day before it's started, kiteorg preparing the stuff. Pagipagi I went to school, so tk tahu ape diorg buat. Haha :p maybe mop lantai kot. But then when I'm came home, I saw khemah dah ade depan rumah. Wow, gold color. Hahah rasa mcm dah nak kahwin. Hihihihi :B Lepas kemaskemas semua, susun sofa and bentang karpet. Petang tu kiteorg gantung lampu kelipkelip. :B comel je. ahahaha. And then pagi 8 Sept kiteorg bangun seawal awalnya utk prepare the thingsssss. 7 a.m. I bangun tawwww. Hahaha terlepas subuh .____. damn! bangun lmbt ah juga tu pkul 7. And that time masingmasing ade tugas lepas breakfast. Me and Ayie susun kuih raya dlm bekas. Kakak amik opah dgn paklang. Masa tu lah rasa mcm wowww, tk leh nak explain. Hahaha happy even byk benda nak buat masa open house tu. and dlm pkul 8 mcm tu kiteorg susun meja dgn kerusi :) Pakai baju selekeh je. Hahaha time org dtg pun Ika nmpk selekeh dan sakai. Lol. about 10.30 a.m. ustaz and his family arrived. Time tu cikyang and family pun sampai so ramai lah juga dpt samasama baca doa selamat. Dah selesai doa selamat baru katering sampai. Haa tu dah beginning.. Haaaaaaaa. hahaha mulamula tk ramai org sgt. sbb pagi, kan? Kiteorg jemput guests pkul 1 until night. Woo. hahaha best ah even penat. Ramai dtg masa pukul 2 and 3. Kemuncak of the story. Haaa. Masa tu lah kiteorg mula sibuk layan tetamu :) So here the pictures of the memories.

Ika mmg tk sempat nak update that time juga. Yelah dlm keadaan letihnya, mengantuk and etc. Lagipun Ika busy dgn fkirkan PMR ni tk lama lagi! OMG! Hm goodbye blog, twitter, facebook! I'm gonna sit for big exam, soon. Gotchaaaa. See you in next month, insyaAllah. After PMR, I will continue blogging ;) xoxo

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1st Syawal :)

Assalamualaikum :) Jawab, jgn tk jawab. Haha tkdelah. Anyway, on our 1st day of Syawal, banyak benda nak kena buat. Banyak benda nak kena fikir. Tk semuanya tersedia perfectly. We have to work on it, betul tk? Mcm tu juga takdir, Allah tentukan segalanya utk kita. Tkknlah kita terima je? Yg buruk kita kena perbaiki, yg baik sentiasa dtg dariNya, betul tk? Angguk sikit? Haha.

First day raya ni agak sayu lah hati ni. Firstly, rindukan arwah atuk. Second, raya tanpa abah. Third, hati tk tenteram dri mulanya bulan Ramadhan. Forth, hati tk bahagia. Fifth, my life almost ruined tapi Ika berjaya kuatkan semangat :') alhamdulillah atas semua yg Allah kurniakan. Ika bersyukur, yg baik buruk Ika terima. Ika cuba, Ika buat, Ika decide, ini life Ika.

Heishh orang nak cerita pasal raya ni cerita pasal lain terus -.- Haihhh dah dah. :p Okay here! Awal subuh Ika bangun. dlm 6.30 mcm tu lah tk lah awal sgt. Soso. haha. Ika admit it, this is the first time Ika bangun awal seawal subuh, sbbkan nak sambut raya dgn family. And Ika pun kena temankan opah solat Aidilfitri. Haha first time k. Tklah batak sgt okayyyy just be normal kid. hahaha. Ika happy, Ika sedih. Yes I am. Bermcm perasan ade bila jejak kaki ke masjid. Nak happy, tapi nak sedih pun ade. Dgr takbir raya, air mata degil nak keluar tapi hati lagi kuat degilnya. Hahaha sabar jelah. Then mata terpaksa tahan kt situ. Diam kau kt situ. hahaha

Raya tahun ni meriah mcm biasa tapi lagi meriah dekat belah abah. Sbb diorg sporting and more to the jokes. Belah umi tk sgt. Diorg pun tk ramai sgt kt rumah opah. Just kiteorg and Pak Ngah's family. Esok, raya kedua baru diorg berkumpul mcm biasa. Masa kt rumah wan lagi beshhhh. hihi sbb diorg semua ade kecuali Pak Uda and Cik Yin. Hihi it's okay. We still have a days left. We still have a chance to beraya with them. Nanti 8 September kiteorg ade buat open house. Ramaiiiii nak jemput ni. Excited!

Emm, okayy dah byk sgt bebel kt sini smpai tk letak pun gmbr. Hoho gmbr semua buruk. Hahaha I mean, mine.. Kalau beramai okaylah but kalau sorg tu asyik blur .___. and the rest, semua dlm handphone, dlm instagram, dlm twitter so tgklah sendiri k. haha ni dlm camera DSLR so it's easy for me to upload here. Dlm iPhone, susah nak masuk sini. Because iPhone is a bit complicated :) hanya iPhone users je tahu mcm mana. Haha so ape ape Ika masuk kt twitter ;) Dun worry k!

May Allah bless all of us. :) Alhamdulillah for everything, ya Allah :')) I am so grateful for having this chances to spend the precious time :') The end~~

Opss, there's no ending for this moment. Wait for the next posts, huh darling? ;) InsyaAllah see you there! xoxo

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Being good, is not a good enough.

Assalamualaikum. Harini 26 Ramadhan eh? Alhamdulillah. Hopefully amal ibadat semua diterima. Anyway, Ika makin lama makin sedih.. Makin lama makin hancur. Ika tk tahulah ape nak jadi dah. Ape pun Ika redha setiap ape yg Allah kurniakan dlm hidup ni. Ika harap sgt Ika tk merungut. Setiap hari, ape yg Ika lalui, hati Ika hancur sikit demi sedikit.. Ika tk tahu kenapa hati Ika cepat tawar, cepat nak hancur. Very sensitive.. Ika langsung tk reti nak pretend depan diorg.. Kalau Ika tk suka, Ika tunjuk. Kalau Ika benci that thing, Ika tunjuk.. Well, I don't have to be pretend, kan? Ika tk minta lebih dri memahami setiap ape Ika buat, ape Ika minta.. Ika tk minta duit korang, Ika just minta korang faham Ika. Tk salah kan? Tk berat mana kan permintaan Ika tu? Tapi kenapa ni korang balas kt Ika? Ya Allah, jika ini jalan yang Kau kurnia kan untuk melihat diri ku lebih baik dari dulu, aku redha.. Aku tahu ape yg terbaik utk ku :')

Last night, is a horrible night ever.. Silap Ika, Ika mulakan dulu.. I shouldn't say anything. I have to keep silent and biarkan ape jadi.. Diam and biarkan orang pijak kepala. That's what I should do.. Ika tkde niat langsung nak sakitkan hati sesape. Ika jauhkan diri ade sebab. Sometimes I just need to be myself when I'm being alone. Susah nak faham? Ya Allah, kenapa smpai mcm ni sekali? Kenapa susah sgt diorg nak faham Ika? Setiap ape Ika buat? Everything happens for a reason, hanya Allah je yg tahu.. Tapi setiap ape Ika buat, I know ape sebabnya.. Cukup sekadar diri Ika tahu. Cukup Allah je tahu kenapa Ika buat semua tu.. Semua yg orang buat kt Ika, Ika cuba think positive.. Ika cuba amik yg jernih, buang yg keruh. Ika tk tahu ape lagi nak buat selain fikir positive. Bila Ika sorg sorg, tkde benda lain Ika nak fikirkan selain dri ni.. PMR nak dekat, makin lama makin stressed. I lost everything... Tapi syukran, Ika tk kehilangan kasih sayang seorang ibu, seorang kakak, adik and kucings Ika :') Ika bersyukur sgt diorg still ade lagi utk Ika. Diorg stay no matter what happens on me.. Mungkin.. lebih baik Ika bahagia dgn keluarga dripd org luar, kan? :')

That's all I can do..

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