It's called as LIFE

My ego tk pernah down. Well, it's happen since I came into my new life, in form 3 life. Suffer.. It is just.. haih, I don't know what to say lagi dah. This may be a short post, today, tonight. I just want to tell you guys, my life is awesome, walaupun hati dah hancur berderai.

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When will....?

Bila Ika dapat tengok senyuman umi, macam mana umi senyum happy sambut Ika masa kecik dlu? Bila Ika dapat tengok umi happy? Bila Ika dapat dengar gelak ketawa umi bila dengan anak-anak umi? Bila Ika dapat rasa ketenangan yang umi rasa di hati umi? Bila Ika dapat rasa kebahagiaan yang ada pada jiwa umi? Pada hidup umi? Bila? Bila Ika akan dpt hidup dgn umi with a joy? Bila Ika dapat tolong sembuhkan luka di hati umi ni? Bila Ika dapat tolong bangga kan umi? Bila Ika dapat lihat air mata kegembiraan umi? Bila, ya umi?

Soalan-soalan ni selalu ada dlm ingtan Ika. Ika tk tahu nak buat ape lagi selain drpd menangis walaupun Ika tahu, menangis tk dpt menyelesaikan masalah dlm hidup ni. Air mata tk dapat tolong Ika jauhkan masalah ni. Tapi Ika nak sangatsangatsangat tengok umi happy. Ika sanggup mati untuk dapatkan kebahagiaan untuk umi. Allah menguji banyak sngt. Memang salah Ika merungut and mcm tk suka Allah bagi ni semua tapi Ika, as her daughter... haih, entahlah. Allah je tahu perasaan Ika, and how I feel. I can't do anything. I couldn't help her to get out from this hell. I just need to be patient and be strong to face the enemy.. *take a deep breath* Hehe okay dah. InsyaAllah I can handle this, sampai lah Ika dah habis belajar, dah kerja, had some experience, and looking for job, I will take her out of this ;) travel the world which have been waiting for ages ;) If these words can heal everything :'] Hmm.

P.S: Dear time, please move forward, faster. :']

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Dream.. will come true. InsyaAllah

Hoooyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, hihihi. Ika nak happy! Even situasi tk mengizinkan. But it's okay, as long as my dream can makes me happy. I will be okay. As you can see, picture above, menunjukkan yang Ika still sukakan Princesses stories. Cerita dongeng semua tu. Hihi I swear Ika still sukaaa tengok cerita tu semua. And the latest story, Tangled. Ada tengok? Cerita tu best gilaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Hahah try ah tengok. Selalu ade kt HBO :) Mengisahkan princess hilang, her name is Rapunzel. Ala, cerita dia mcm Rapunzel tp lain skit lah. Dia ade rambut magic. Panjanggggggg gilaa rambut dia. Lawa and cute. I love it very muchhhh :D hihi. Tengok jelah, Ika malas nak cerita ;p hehehe.

So, holidays dah start. As I told you, I will update it kalau ade masa. And ya, nothing is special. Just for relax time. Spending time with family, cats and lover. Hihi :p Oh ya, you know? Ika pakai number maxis and digi :p hehehe. Abah gave me last week. He said, he know I want to use Digi's number. So he give his old number. Dia tk nk pkai lagi. I don't know why, unimportant ;p so, I'm using 2 no and 2 phone .___________. ya bagus. hahaha. Saje je. Ala, kalau tk pkai dah, bg lah balik. Saje try pakai ;p hehehe. Okay lah gak pakai Digi. Murah and save kredit. Kalau maxis tkde kredit, guna digi ;p hehehe. Rasanya kalau topup 50, boleh tahan dua bulan :B Even using BB, BBM. internet service, serious murah kalau Digi. Try on it ;)

So, talk about dreams on the first place.. I want to be happy. Well sometimes betul gk org ckp, duit boleh buat kau happy. Ya it is tapi susah kalau ade org yg suka amik kesempatan :( Hmm kalau kita ade duit je, mesti ramai amik kesempatan atas tu semua. Susah nak cari org yg ikhlas kawan ngn kita tanpa harapkan duit, harta tu semua. Hishh payahnyaaaa .___. Okayyy its time for listing my dreamssssssssssss~

- A happy day, happy things and happy everything :']
- A good life with family and friends
- A good relationship with Allah, family, friends and my future...... lol
- Nak jadi wedding planner
- but in the same time nak jadi cikgu tadika .______________.
- Be pretty in my own way. ;)
- Nak pakai kereta BMW Z4
- Nak duduk rumah banglo besarrr with my family, with my own money.
- Wanna go Mekah and Madinah once again with Umi :'] Me and Umi, only.
- Wanna go Paris, London, Istanbul and... Egypt :]
- Nak kittens, cats yang cuteeeeeeeeeeee sngt :p and manja mcm Oyen. I mean, I want yg white punya. Ya Allah, mesti cute, kan? :'D
- I want MacBook Pro
- dslr canon 1100D. DUSHHHHHHHHHHH I REALLY WANT THISSS :'[ badly...
- Every dress, with polka dots pattern. Make sure it is pink or blue ;) white blue

Rasanya dah kot. Hahahaha. Tapi semua tu tkkn jadi kalau tkde usaha dari diri kita sendiri, kan? So? Ika kena usaha utk dpt kan semua tu. Impian Ika tk setinggi org lain. Impian Ika yang sebenarnya, ialah kebahagiaan. Kebahagiaan dtg dripd senyuman yang ada pada bibir umi. Kebahagiaan umi, kebahagiaan Ika. That's it :) Tapi semua tu just tambahan je. hahaha saje je listkan ;) So people would know yang Ika ade impian Ika sendiri tapi kebanyakkan semuanya yang memerlukan duit ;) Haha.

And this~

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Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Assalamualaikum, ya Allah, lama dah tk buka blog ni. Ade niat nak update, tp tkde masa. Haha. Last week, hm I mean.. dlm last month lah, umi dah alihkan meja study Ayie ke bilik Ika, so ya thanks to you mum. haha. Ika appreciate it tp gunakan cuma untuk buat hw bukan nak study pun -.- Yes I'm so lazy bum bum. Ya Allah, rasa mcm nak lepuk je diri sendiri tp tu lah hakikatnya, tu lah faktanya. Ika memang malas to the max and I really hate myself T_T Hmm kenapa kau ni Ika? Seriously, Ika kena berubah juga walau mcm mana pun. Walaupun tk minat belajar, kena juga. People around me selalu ckp, tu semua wajib and have to, sbb tu ilmu Allah. And umi cakap, nnt kalau laki buat hal, tkde masalah utk Ika utk tingglkn dia. Hahaha umi selalu ckp mcm tu kt Ika. Walaupun duit tk berjanjikan kebahagiaan dan hati tenang, selalu ade je org dengki, sbbkan duit, tapi duit segala-galanya APABILA diPERLUkan bukan digunakan ikut sukahati kita je. Duit bukan boleh beli orang, beli kasih sayang. Kalau orang lain, you all boleh lah, but me, no! Duit tk boleh beli Ika, duit tk boleh beli jiwa raga Ika, tk boleh beli kasih sayang Ika. Tu semua anugerah Allah. Love is a gift.


For the other stories, Ika agak stress dgn the things around me. Merimaskan. Sometimes I just wonder, ape yang membuatkan Ika rasa mcm ni, rimas je, rasa tk menentu :/ I don't know why. Rasa mcm semua benda tk selesai dgn baik. Yang satu tu dah okay, datang pula yang lain. I'm not really strong to face this, alive. For seriously, Ika memang tk kuat tapi Ika memaksa diri utk kuat. Paksa diri utk pretend Ika okay. Depan family, kawankawan. And in front of myself. Tapi.. depan Allah? Ika tk boleh. Air mata mengalir bila Ika luahkan semuanya. I know, He is testing me right now. He wants me to be better than this. :')

About Adam? Heheh Ika banyak fkirkan dia. tapi Ika tk harapkan dia sngt. Not really. Ika redha kalau Ika dpt kawan dgn dia lagi sekali or not. Ika redha kalau kiteorg tkde jodoh utk teruskan semuanya. Ika mmg dh siap sedia since my negative thoughts always be in my head. Ika hope Ika dpt tabahkan hati ni. Masalah Ika tk lah sebesar orang lain. Maybe orang lain lagi teruk drpd ni. Buat ape Ika nak merayu dkt Allah supaya berhenti. Sbb Ika tahu, setiap yang Allah bagi, utk kebaikan. Utk ajar Ika. :') I really thanked to Him.

P.S: Alhamdulillah. I love my life, my heart. Walaupun byk sngt scars inside ;') InsyaAllah, cuti nnti Ika update lagi ^ _ ^

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