Saturday, July 7, 2012

I'm trying to find a right person to stay with me..


Assalamualaikum, nampaknya tittle and gmbr nmpk sad je. Haha yes I am :') Tapi tk tahu mcm mana nak mula. Haish, mcm mcm masalah datang. Macammacam dah jadi kt dlm rumah ni, dlm family ni, dlm life Ika ni. Bukan Ika nak salahkan Allah, salahkan takdir tapi Ika rasa sedih sgt dgn semua ni. Okay, masalah family Ika boleh handle. Tapi bila dtg masalah mcm ni, Ika perlukan someone, perlukan sokongan, yes I am. I need it so much. I'm starving for this. Seriously. Kalau form 2 dlu kalau ade masalah, cepatcepat orang tu datang and bagi advice, semangat tapi skrg... :'))) No one. It is not about Adam. Please jangan igt dia yg selalu kasi advice. Dia tk pernah dikaitkan dlm ni. Dia pun tk pernah tahu masalah ni. Bila dgn Adam, Ika tk berani nak bagitahu apeape. Just kawan and cikgu jelah. Tu tk semua, just half on it. Entahlah. Ika tk tahu nak describe how I feel right now. Nak nangis, ye memang everynight air mata jadi peneman before tidur. Nak sedih, ye everyday hati bersedih. Tapi bibir memaksa utk senyum depan org ramai. Suara terpaksa utk tipu cakap Ika okay. Ika tk leh nak kata ape, tkleh nak buat ape. Satu persatu masalah datang. Orang kata, "Suffer first, enjoy the rewards later." Yah that's what I'm waiting for. Ika and family dah ckup menderita tapi kiteorg paksa diri utk tahan and katakan kiteorg kuat utk face it. :') whole family. Tapi utk privacy, Ika perlu kan someone.. Yes I am :'( Ika tk sanggup nak tahan sorang-sorang. Kalau boleh Ika tk nk bagitahu directly yg Ika need it tapi dari body language, dari gaya tkkn tk faham kot?! Seriously Ika sedih dgn diorg ni... Hm. No one could understand.. Mana diri dia yang dulu? Hmmm :/
Thanks for reading. xoxo

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