Hari ni berapa hari bulan? 27 december right? 27 sempena sebulan aku kawan dgn dia. You know, who else selain A. No wishing, no even mention. Call mesej? Lagilah tkde kalau mention kt twitter tkde. Upset? Yes I am. Kecewa to the max. I smile, yes I do smile. But it is just a fake. Aku tk nk umi, angah and kakak or people around me worried about me. So tu je cara aku. Memang terseksa. Sape tk terseksa senyum paksa depan orang. I work as shift, siang aku senyum malam aku nangis. Bangun pagi aku senyum, act like happy. Tapi aku sikit pun tk pernah mean it. Never. Even once. Tapi tk boleh lah juga aku sedih sepanjang masa, yelah, nasib aku, dugaan aku tk seberat orang lain. Umi selalu nasihatkan, jangan sedih sngt, bersykurlah dugaan kita ni tk seberat orang lain. Ada banyak lagi dugaan orang lain lagi berat dari kita, lagi besar tanggungjawab diorg. So I'm here not telling people that I'm too depressed. I'm just need some space and place to talk to. I just need someone to understand me. Like Maira, she does. She's always be. I'm so thankful and so lucky being her good friend. The only one good friend I had. And Fara, diela too. You know, actually aku pun tk ingt tarikh ni. Firstly last night, I tweeting as usual before I go to bed. Using iPhone. Sambil baring-baring, tweet ah. Memang syok, lama lama ngantuk terus tidur. Hihi. So, last night I saw a boy who tweeting about his girl. Awwh, so sweet. I love his tweets. And lastly he said "Already 27. :o one month :')" He tweet like that. And I was like... Oh, first month anniversary. And then I... yes like a shit, baru je perasan baru je realize yang dah masuk 27. Well that time 1 pagi kot. And me, grr terus tengok calendar dkt phone and terus tweet about that. Here I printscreen it.
Yeah, haha. I'm sorry, firstly memang lupa. But then bila fikirkan, no point I'm wishing to people who doesn't care about me at all. There's no whole point. So I don't text him.. and kiteorg pun kan dah tkde pape. So I just let it be. Biarkan tinggl kenangan. Siang tadi, haha. Aku dgr lagu dlm bilik Ayie. And when my tears running down on my cheeks, I lock the door. So people wouldn't notice it. I cry while I'm singing the songs. Mostly, lagu sedih. Haha. Jiwang weh siang tadi. Seriously puas hati. Yeah I mean, aku jerit sekali kot. And harap diorg semua kt bawah fkir aku nyanyi. YESSS they are! Haha. When I ask them, they thought I was singing. Padahal jerit bagai gila kot. Haha. Best! Smpai tkde suara. But then, Maira commented on my photo dlm fb. So phone pun berbunyi ah. Masuk notification. My laptop rosak, so nak online just using iPhone. Then, chatting ngn Maira dkt FB. Pastu skype ngn dia. Hihi, terubat rindu ;) And I'm gonna meet her this thursday. Pergi rumah dia. And maybe kiteorg make up, dress up and then amik gmbr. Hehe. As usual bila jumpa dia mesti amik gmbr and then post on FB :P hehe. Well, nk lupakan problem, dgn dia jelah. She's always make me feel comfortable and mcm... happy bila dgn dia. Seriously she's the best friend I had :') Thank you so much! ;) I couldn't imagine how my life would looks if ... without her. Haih, k yes i'm okay! hehe :)
Can we change the topics? Since I put this picture, I want to talk about my shopping day with my parents. Haha. Okay nmpk tk tu baju sekolah? Yes baju sekolah, tudung sekolah, kain sekolah and kasut sekolah. Yay! I'm sooooooooooooooo excited to start my new life as fifteen on next year. And start my day with smile and happy in this heart. Aww Eyka! You are so sweet. hahaha. What the heck I'm.. ahh, K. It is. Haritu shopping. Eh I mean yesterday. Kan cuti? Abah cuti, so petang tu kiteorg beli barang sekolah. Baju baju ni. Mine, and my brother's things. Kasut sekolah 2, baju dua, tudung dua, and kain pun dua. Stoking je satu. Hihi. Oh, dlm gmbr memang satu je, sbb kasut lagi satu tu tk muat masuk camera ._. haha. Okay. Seriously, I'm ready for school. But I'm not ready in 100% for study hard :O omg, PMR. hahaha. Umi pun risau je. Angah mengelabah and I'm... relax! hehe :B Well I think I should start off now. Start planning about my schedule. Start everything!!!! Start preparing for my big day! :o Gahhh, I'm so nervous campur excited :'D hahaha. Beg skolah tk beli lagi. But I told my dad yang malas nk beli baru. Tapi beg lama tu angah nak bawa gi campus dia. So, me? I should buy a new one :B hehe. But nak beli sendiri ah. Tknk abah belikan. Lebih suka umi or I buy it for myself. Nak beg roxy :B heheh. And buku pun belum beli lagi. Umi plan esok nk beli. Haih, it's the first time beli semua ni in last minute. :p lol. Last year cepat je beli. But for this year.. grr. haha. Stationery pun belum lagi. Maybe besok kot. Yeah maybe. Umi ckp umi tk kisah nk tuisyen kt mana. Biar jauh ke asalkan dpt belajar. Yes!! haha nak tuisyen dgn Maira :) Nak sama mcm diaaaa :B hehe. Baru I excited nk study. And kiteorg pun plan lepas balik sekolah nak pergi library. Studygroup. Yeahhhhhh, I love this feelings. Excited to the max! :) YESSS I AM :D haha. Skrg ni pun jarang update blog. and mesti lepas ni, lepas start sekolah, lagi jarang :( Hm, kena korban kan sikit. Hehe. Anyway, tweet me okay? Pape hal tweet je. FB and blog maybe jarang. Yelah, laptop pun rosak. And tweet selalunya pkai phone je. So pape hal tweet je ah :) Always be there. Hihi. So ya, I gotta go. Dh byk sngt aku membebel kt sini. Byee everyone. Assalamualaikum :) x
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